Being guided by songs

"You got to be honest

You got to be guarded

Found a way to understand the things I'm learning

Found a way to understand the time you're burning"

(band of skulls lyrics)

There is nothing like the beauty of a random song that every word seems almost perfectly speaking to you or you singing as if you wrote it. I am learning honesty in the most raw open way possible and only now do i understand my world, my actions, my karma and my consequences.

I used to laugh and get irritated at people who kept saying " the truth will set you free"

What i have realized now is that i have been such a selfish being that the truth i have always kept to myself, as if i share my life but the truth is mine.

well.... now what i teach Emi every day is that " sharing is caring".... so now the light on that subject is shining full blast.

So...... no one wants to know that you have lied.

no one wants to know that what you justified was actually honestly pure evil intent for revenge.

Who says to your face that they have gossiped about you?

I have. I have done all of the above and so have all the souls we come across everyday.

I still trust, i still love.

The truth isn't yours to keep.

It will suck the life out of you.

Talk. Please Talk ...

Your body is lucky.

Your body is lucky.

you are the majority

the common cold

the tummy bug

you heal

you live.

take care of your body

love it 

feed it

give it what it needs

trust me.

Health is taken for granted

Your beating heart

your strong back

take care of it my friend

When you are old you might get sick

that is what the healthy

careless society think

oh these things come with old age.

They don't always.

Your body is lucky.

Breathe deep you can breathe

Your lungs work

don't kill them

your body stays warm

your body wakes up

love it. feed it.

Your body is lucky.

NOW i know how you feel.

People answer you with honest answers once in a lifetime, and you stand there dumbstruck not knowing how to say you are sorry for what they have just experienced or simply give the immediate response of " shame man" or " I could not imagine how difficult that must be".


The truth is that YOU can imagine it, and you can analyse it and try think of the emotions that might possibly be killing them. Since you are in control of your decisions and your hopes, you choose to live by honestly never  even attempting to imagine it could happen to you. That would simple add more stress and grief to you already complicated life. 


If everyone chose to stop for a second and really think if they could feel another persons loss, i believe the world would  not be such a lonely place. There would be an unspoken empathy that we connect the broken with the pampered protected minds.  Segregation would be difficult to maintain as well as judgment or denial.


If i think about it, would i even begin to try imagine  what different situations would feel like i think i would probably fall to pieces knowing i could not fix them, redo them, rewind and make them happy instead.
We all want to cover situations up, make them look prettier, healthier. For ourselves and people.


I cant do any of that but i can choose to honestly try to imagine. Because then i am not untouchable or invisible. I am not protected by my denial and poor you , good luck.  I do not think i am better than you or stronger or constantly have to justify my actions. I am in the cross fire. I also hear the chaos and so do you.


Now if you think about it.

Connecting in some way through humility and staying mindful of the honest souls will keep you grounded. Connected. 
Or you could run for your life through  a battle field and think you will never be shot.


lets just say i stay i do both.


I guess that is how we survive.